"This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being thoroughly worn out before you are thrown on the scrap heap; the being a force of Nature instead of a feverish selfish little clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy".
I think he's right, by and large. I know that my life goes best when I am answering the two questions "How can I create? How can I serve?"
But, some days, some times I descend into "SCOAaG-ville". When I'm tired, when autumn is closing in and there is less time to get out and about and enjoy nature, when I put work and serious things before connecting with friends and doing fun things, then my " Selfish clod of ailments and grievances" - side gets the better of me. Today was one of those days.
It was a day when the energy didn't flow, when I got through half my to do list, when I missed working surrounded by friends in Crete. When doing things one step at a time, and lowering my expectations seemed the only way.
In hindsight I can see I was headed to "SCOAaG"-ville when I thought spending time working on my laptop was more important than going for a walk, when I worked late to finish one last thing rather than kick back and watch TV, and when I ate breakfast on the run rather than taking time to stop. When I missed my morning writing and haven't meditated or done yoga in days.
That said, I remind myself that I am, often, quite the " force of nature ". That my oft-remarked upon energy and enthusiasm don't maintain themselves. And, more to the point, the thing about forces of nature is that they come and go.
The moon waxes and wanes, the tides riase and fall. The beach can't be perpetually at high tide, and the moon isn't always full.
My swing of energy down will have an upswing, eventually. And in the meantime, life can only be lived one step at a time.
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